Facing Disappointment: The Final Rant

While this blog is where I share my updates and behind-the-scenes thoughts, I’m not quite ready to dive into the specifics of what’s going on.

It seems that many people do not truly value connections, and while that’s fine, it’s not how I am or how I want to be, especially at my age.

One of the most frustrating things I’ve encountered is the use of elaborate excuses, like being injured or medicated, to cover up unavailability. This isn’t the first time I’ve faced this issue—it’s happened before with other people, and it’s beyond annoying. I’ve been genuinely concerned for their well-being, only to find out the truth was different from what I was told. It’s far simpler and more respectful to be honest about your situation or just step away from the friendship if you can’t maintain it. Coming up with stories to justify being out of touch shows a lack of respect and makes me question the authenticity of the relationship. It really isn’t that complicated.

What I’ve learned from these situations is that people often don’t see the problem in their actions. More often than not, the issue gets turned around, and blame is placed on me. Imagine that—ME, forcing someone to pretend to value my friendship, to ghost me and reappear as if nothing happened, or even lie about parts of their life. Perhaps I don’t fully grasp my own power. 🤷🏾‍♀️

As I reflect on this year’s revelations, I’ve made the decision to step back from building personal relationships and focus solely on business connections. It’s been a year of eye-opening experiences, and while I’m disappointed, I’m proud of myself for choosing not to let anger or hurt dictate my actions. Maybe I’m just too fucking nice sometimes, but I believe letting go and moving forward with clarity is the best path. It’s a good thing all of this year’s bullshit happened before my birthday, or I’d be singing a different tune.

In closing, I want to highlight something that often gets overlooked: people don’t always consider how their actions affect others. Someone could already be struggling deeply, and the impact of thoughtless actions can push them further into distress. Or perhaps they do know and just don’t give a fuck. In my case, it still blows my mind that the option to simply leave me be wasn’t considered.

Starting the new week with a renewed focus, I have to concentrate on what truly matters. If you read all my rants to this point… Wow. Have a great week!

Fe ❤️