Damn

I wanted to take a moment to share something deeply personal with you all. Over the past few days, I’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster, and it all started with just one message. One click led to another, and before I knew it, years’ worth of messages started to align with things I’ve come across recently on social media. And it’s made me wonder—why was I lied to so many times, unprompted?

I could understand if I had asked questions and was lied to in response (though, let’s be real, there’s no excuse for that either), but to be minding my own business and still be told lies makes no sense to me.

For a while now, I had this feeling—a suspicion that something wasn’t quite right. But seeing everything come together, piece by piece, has left me feeling a whirlwind of emotions I can hardly put into words.

A wise woman once told me, “The truth will only make you mad.” And she wasn’t wrong. I’m feeling a mix of confusion, frustration, and maybe even a bit of heartbreak. Now everything makes sense in a way that’s overwhelming. While this blog is where I share my updates and behind-the-scenes thoughts, I’m not quite ready to dive into the specifics of what’s going on.

A part of me wants to just disappear, unplug from everything, and focus on nothing but weight training and writing—like the bad motherfucker I am. But, I still have feelings, and I know I can’t completely retreat. I just took a break a few weeks ago. WTF! I’ll be okay, but right now… I’m just processing it all. 😕

Damn…

— Fe ❤️